Hmmm? How should i start? Got lots of things in my mind that i wanted to say.. but how should i phrase it? How? Hmm?Haiz...feel very sick today. Morning woke up, stomachache then keep on sneezing non-stop. AhHHh---cHooOO.. There it goes again.. Haiz. Make me no mood and strength to study. Now? I feeling better le. But emotional not feeling good.

Get angry with my brothers for not doing their work and onli play. Haiz..this is not the first time and i cant give up on disciplincing them. But...i fail to disciplince them. =( I am useless ar? Lazy oso.. Haiz.. Feel like crying.. So long nv cry le. Want to let go all the grudes in me. All the sadness, all the angry-ness, all the... ARRGGHHH~~!!! STress!! Why do i not have the strength to study? Why do i not have the strength to cry? Why?!

Jealously..izzit normal for human to feel jealous? Jealous. Its a very bad one. Its not good for humans. Cos it will enpower you to do things out of your control, out of your imagination. Why?! Tell me why?

I feel so hyper yet so tired. Want to just play the whole day and forget all my unhappiness i have. But...i have no $$. Haiz.. Want to ice-skate, play the piano, subra-dive, drive a car, sing, cry, laugh, smile...WAIT! Am i crazy? What's wrong with me? Tink i am having fever now. Feeling very hot despite its windy. Am i studying too much that made me like that?
Last night went to a website. Wow..got lots of nice nice ringtones. Dl them. But...i cant transfer them to my hp. =( So sad. Felt so ARGH~~! Why my dad's fone can? Why mine cant? Haiz.

Hmmm...Have been thinking about this:.. Why on last wednesday, i got tis very very strong motivation to study? Why? And what made me follow exactly my time-table? God..tell me.. what is that thing/person/animal/creature/watever lar that motivates me to study? So that i can use the same method to motivate me to study the next time. Haiz.. But i guess..its that someone. Its the A'Level results, my AO' result, my friends' results, my friends' words, PJC, Mr quek, Mdm Goh, Mrs Ho......

Izzit? I don't know. I onli know that when the release of A', the 20 pointer guy was able to get triple A's, my friends through hard work able to get A's. So what does this prove? I can achieve my dream of A's too! My AO' chi result tells me that i haven put in enough effort in studying. My friend's AO' result is so unexpected and the same for mine. So? Study now!!! Act now!! PJC? The teachers made me realise that if i don't do well. I will have no where to go! Do you want that to happen next year? No! I want to get into a Uni! Hav a high-paying job. Mdm goh and mrs ho made me realise that i shouldn't depend so much on my teachers. To get good results, you have to start studying now! Ultimately, your results is permanent to you but temporary to the teachers! Ya! Well...Guess i am better now. Well, not really ok..but betterrr..

P.S: To readers who are reading my blog... Sorry if i made you so worried after reading this. But.i guess i got to say it out. Couldnt find anyone to talk to. But to talk to my blog. Hehe..